Tuesday, September 18, 2007

I remember

I still remeber how i told my friends thatlove only happens in movies I thought they were fools for loving....till i met you.

I still rewmember how i ddnt know how to deal with all i was feeling till u drew me out of it, yes you thought me that love was about knowing i was loved ,you touched my soul not because you wanted to but becuase that was all u ever knew how to.
I still remember when you told me that relationship wasnt just about romance but about friendship .You thought me how to be free with you, you let me into the inner most experiences of you charred childhood.

I still remember how you told me that you had stopped seeing me as you girlfriend but as your best friend.You told me that you felt like you had known me all your life and i felt like i belonged with you.

I still remeber the endless nights of passion you thought me what it really was ,you showed how to enjoy it and how to expres it .You made me realise that sex wasnt just for pleasure it was a communion,its was communication

I remember loving u , i just loved u
I still remember all the email u sent to me last thing everyday b4 u close from work,and how it used to brighten my day first thing every morning.
I still remeber how you called me by 6am just to tell me you were passing your babys house (me) on your way to work it was always a wake up call i looked forward to.
I still remember how you would tower over me like my body guard and how ur friedns called me ur hand bag.
I still remember our early morning long walks on sundays .I still remember how you look at me like you were lost to the world,i still remember how called me "baby" and each time it sounded like i was just hearing it for the 1st time.

I still remember how the overnightbeard growth on ur cheeks felt, and the feel of ur skin cut scalp .
I remember our frequent fight ,i remebr how we argued over everything,

I remember how u changed and turned into a monster (i almost felt like i ddnt know u)I remember how u withdrew and how we stopped communicating.

I remember how i complained about how much you had changed and the day you told me we needed some time apart to think things through.

I remember how you kept on calling me and i felt you were mocking me and stopped taking your calls.

I remeber the day i ended it even though i ddnt want to (all i jsu wanted was for you to beg me),how i cried ..for days i just cried ,when i saw ur number on my phone i cried ,i ddnt wanna pick it and i cried,
i missed you and yet i cried.

I remember how i came few months later and met some other girl ,you had already moved on and then i cried again.

I remember how u came few months ago begging me to have you back ,how stupid did you think i am ?Did u think id always be there waiting?

I remember when i moved on ,i couldnt possibly go back to you ,only dogs go back to their vomit...
Now u stalk me ,u bug me call my fones come at odd times im really fed up...gimme a break bro..

I still think of you all the time and from time to time and i remember....

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Cant help it

..so am listening to some Bayelsa artist named Timaya and im wondering ....Nigerian artists would go places ...well the ones that are wise enof to be original.

I suddenly have this thing for bayelsa men.My best male friemd is from Bayelsa and 12 years older than me.

Have u ever been torn between an attraction and just being friends ,my mother usually says that male and females dont play together ..in summary u cant have a male as your best friend,its often going to turn to something else,i often dont agree,but with my best friend it kinda got out of hand ....... the fact that he is tall dark and attractive doesnt help matters not forgetting the fact that he is RICH.

Somebody help me here!!!!!!!im loosingfocus.I have had so much drama in my life this year and i need some form of stability.

Friday, September 7, 2007


...so i have this cute new guy in my office....hnmmmmmm

Is he trying to flirt with me?

I wonder.

Well im a flirt ( u know what they say about gemini's being flirts..i dont believe in stars though) bt im all mouth and no action so if you wants to broda .... bring it on.
Im a flirt.......

Meanwhile the blind date guy just called me and i completely acted like i cant remember him,anyways he got around to finally calling and not sending sms(cheap skate).


...a poem i saw somewhere ...lovely ( well IF only i can do all these)
IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor
talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to,
broken,And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,'
Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

Blind date!!!!!!

So i had this blind date last wednesday....some guy my cousins been trying to hook me up with..he calls me up a couple of times and then we finally decide to meet on Wednesday.About a quarter past 6 he calls me up and tells me he is really neck deep in work and wont be able to drive me home ,im like ..kool lets hook up some other time and he is like no we should definetly meet even if its for a few minutes .

My best friend calls me to know where am at (i originally ddnt want to tell her) so i tell her im havin a blind date with some guy she should come and join us later at least have free dinner...... So i do all the make up ,gloss my lips and im looking drop dead sexy (well my view) .We had originally agreed to meet in some eatery (cheap skate).He gets there and calls me ,i get there and see some guy outside staring at me and i was almost panicking thinking he is d one (cos the guy ugly no be small).Anyway i get into the eatery and some how i walk up to the cutest guy i can see and he is the one.,i see dis sweet fresh nice looking bobo (nna ..d guy dikwa very fresh).Kinda cute u know.So we get talkin abt his job his work hours (JUST ABOUT HIM).By like 10 mins i was fed up.
At this pont i send Best Friend an sms to come save me cos i was really gettin bored .He was just talking and all the talk was boring about consulting , Taxation ,projects and his terrible long work hours etc ...he was the one talking .He was just talking abt his job,well by now i had seen we ddnt really have much in common nothing to tlk abt so i was just being the pefect audience and hoping best friend wld show upto gimme some breather ,he is a complete nerd. A cute nerd , Doesnt look it though ,most nerds are usually cute they say. All these while he hasn't asked me if id like to eator like to have a drink or anything ,so im like thank God atleast we would do that when BF comes so we could all have dinner together .Finally...the long awaited BF arrives we do the intros and i say thank God i have been waitin for u to have my dinner .Then i ask her if she has had anything to eat (like i ddnt know).The moment i asked her that ,the guy just got up and said he had to go that he had some dealines to meet b4 the next morning .Im in shock ,he just gets up and walks out to my utter amazement ...no dinner, no drink nada.

What kind guy is that ?someone please answer me.If he ddnt want to buy for her he would have bought for me naaaaa .

Someone said he is prob a jew guy i.e not a player ..not used to the woman game .I told them this isnt abt being jew ,its abt courtesy , jew guys still have manners. This kin guy fit carry pesin comot go embarass am ooo. My dear i just dont know, infact jew guy go wan spend his last cent to impress chics .

Its so crazy cos the bobo is too fresh not to know the right thing .

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Early morning thots

I am grateful for Yesterday ,for today and even tomorro
Yes im gateful
For those innocent years i took life for granted and you pulled me through
Im grateful
For the times i took even your Love for granted
Im grateful
For the times i purposely tried to hurt you when all you did was love me
Im grateful
For the times i was at my wits end and had no one else to turn to but you
Im grateful
For that time i escaped again by whiskers
Im grateful
For giving me a 3rd chance even though i knew i didnt deserve it
Im extremely grateful
For not judging me when everyone said all sorts...
Im grateful
For forgiving me even when i purposely hurt you
Im grateful
For delivering me even when you warned me and i went against you will
Im grateful
Even though things may not look like they have fallen in place now
Im grateful
Even though Life still seems like a puzzle
From afar i can see where im heading and again..
Im grateful.
When my zeal is gone ,when i have no other song to sing
My last thoughts would be of you.
Cos im so blessed to have you
And from the depth of my heart
Im truly grateful.

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Proverbs 24:6 (AMP):6

For by wise counsel you can wage your war,
and in an abundance of counselors there is victory and safety.

A new dawn

Ok here marks my journey to discovery,the real me ,my feelings ,thoughts,my past ,my future .

Here the new me begins,the washing,the cleansing ,the rebirth.

Here a Bold and Beautiful woman is born....