Tuesday, April 8, 2008


Whats new with me?

MY new pair of Jeans so sexy with suspenders i bought it some weeks back and now i can barely wear it.

My better half moved to a bigger nice saner apartment ,now i have a second home.

I met his family this easter and suddenly am having cold feet.

My sister has a new obsession for the stock market ,she sends me on endless trips to her stock broker as she doesnt live in the country and cant manage her portfolio.

My new corper colleague who i have come to take not just as a sister but as my friend.

My nice blackberry fone that i still cant fathom.

The frustrating job which im trying to make some sense of ,my sisster said i have to do my best in it if i have to move on to the next level .So now am trying to be faithful and giving it my best job...im actually beginning to feel it.

I made for dough last week just by hooking some people up to do buisness ,funny enof the real dough comes stresslessly.

I need a 2007/8 CRV ...someone please help!

Im begining to have some self control ,control over impulse shopping ,control over my savings ,control over my temper and control over my feelings.

This sudden laziness to pray ...God please help me.

I guess im just rambling ...well atleast i got around to an update!!!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

My Trip,My Love ,My Life

Where do I start? I been away for so long and I have almost forgotten what blogging feels like, work keeps getting tedious, I have so many projects (work related and personal) am running at the same time I wonder how I cope. Since my last blog I have fallen sick ,fallen in love ,frustrated with my job and yet I feel like im going to explode this year .Happy new Year guys .Welcome to this year of Fulfilment!!!!!

…Ok let me start from the beginning… My trip to Dubai was awesome. I shopped and I shopped and I shopped and I shopped, I shopped till didn’t have money to pay my hotel bills, it not something you want to hear about …Anyway finally my sister had to wire me some money from the US (yea it was that bad) .betw friend and I ended up having excess luggage and had to leave a box at the airport (me haven’t gotten it till now). I did shop..this actually beat all the shopping i did the last time i went to the Uk.i still marvel at my vanity..Believe me shopping is therapeutic.

Then again a lot has been happening in my love life. I met this sweet guy, it all started out like a joke now am stuck. It’s 4 months going on 5 and it’s getting sweeter by the day.
It started unseriously now am so deep in I can’t even wriggle myself out of it. The amazing thing is that I feel so much peace around him it feels so unreal, I’ve had so much drama in my life …believe me I have gotten used to drama and am wondering if things could really be different, he has this calming effect on me and its scaring me but at the same time it makes me respect him and yet he is just a couple of years older than me. He makes me so happy am beginning to think it’s unfair to be this happy. I was talking to my sister yesterday and she made me realize that for the first time I actually admitted in taking a guy serious.

Talk about my job…….gosh I need a new job. Im so frustrated with my job it’s affecting everything around me, it affecting my relationship with people, its affecting my relationship with God and that’s the most painful part. Everyday I get to work and I don’t want to come the next day, am going so crazy am almost sure I would resign anytime from now.

... My friends …My best friend just changed jobs and am so happy for her, the new job comes with a fantastic package including a brand new car, then another had a baby and yet another ,then another is getting married ,A lot has been happening and as LG would say ….LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Christmas in Dubai

I started my Vacation last week and am in some shitty cybercafé and am almost getting frustrated. I haven’t entered a café in like 5 years and sitting here wondering y people cant just get their business right…na wa ooo .

Between…am spending my Christmas in Dubai as I intend to go and shop and hear they are doing some sort of shopping festival at this time of the year. So I need advise on anywhere I could go to get
GOOD things at an affordable price, then any other ideas you guys might have I would appreciate …also to do some sight seeing, please please please am waiting for suggestions .It will really be appreciated.

Do have a beautiful christmas guys and may all of Gods tremendous blessing overtake u in the year to come, I know 2008 would be a wonderful year…..am out…this café is just annoying.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

For Sophia ....A true Angel 1979- 2005

It’s the December again and I remember.

U looked like and angel …gosh you were an angel, how could the hands of death snatch u away from me, they say we shouldn’t question God and sometimes I know I try so hard not to, but I still cant help but wonder…Why God? What did she do to deserve this? Why do the Good ones always go so fast? Why did that plane have to crash? Y did she have to be on duty on that flight? Why …? Why?

I still remember our undergraduate years ,I still remember how much u wanted me to change my way of life and how much you disliked my friends ,you always felt I was too good for them ,you never stopped praying that id have a better relationship with God and you never stopped talking to me about it.

I remember the stories u told me about your marriage, the ills of marrying at a young age of 18, I remember all he horrible things your mother in-law did to you, (I hope she is finally happy to be rid of you), you tried to make things work then you finally got the strength to leave your husband and get a life, I remember how you got a degree and u were trying so hard to make something of yourself.

I remember when u got that job in Sosoliso …I was so happy for you and all I wanted was for you to be happy, even that day u came to my office and told me you didn’t want to do ticketing anymore and that all you wanted to do was cabin crew you so loved to fly, now I regret supporting you, I just thought I was being a friend and that the least I could do was encourage you. Then u got the jobswitch and we went out to celebrate, you enjoyed your first flight and you were finally getting a hang of it.

I remember that beautiful weekend we spent at my mans place ,you wanted us to spend some girl time together lounging and he suggested I could invite u to his place for the weekend so that he could give us a treat. I was so excited that you two got along together and I was so happy because I needed u to be happy for me, you were always asking me about him, u really wanted us to end up together, when we started having our issues all you ever did was to cajole me to make things work.

I remember our 3hour lunch outings ,how we would seat down just laugh and gossip about everything and nothing and time would just fly ,my boss even knew that whenever u come around that I don’t get around to doing any work,

Even now I remember the last time I saw u ,a week before you died ,u were sick and couldn’t fly and u came to see me, I remember all the time we spent talking about make up ,skin products and all the girl stuff. You had even gotten an apartment and you wanted me to come share it with you ,you felt bad because I had already made plans with someone else to share an apartment ,we had plans to go to the market to shop for wrought iron and curtains for your apartment, death never gave us a chance to do that…

I remember that Saturday, ooooh that black Saturday, how I wish I don’t have to remember, I was at my new apartment trying to clean it up so that I could move in then as I went to say hi to my new neighbours I saw the headline and saw sosoliso airplane had crashed ,I just ignored it and thought it was the normal crash landing that had become a frequent occurrence, then again I knew your flight route was never Ph but Enugu. My phone battery was dead so no one could reach me, I remember putting it on by 8.30pm at a barbers shop where my man went to cut his hair and a few seconds later I got that call from Chioma, the call that changed my life forever,I remember her telling me to get a grip on myself because she had some bad news for me ..then she told me you were in the crash and no one knew if u were amongst the survivors ,I remember my piercing scream and dropping my phone ,I must have fainted because I remember waking up in my man’s arm he was holding me so tight and we had a group of people surrounding us.

I remember I just couldn’t stop crying ,it was so bad my man couldn’t handle me alone ,he had to take me with him to his friends place to spend the night because he needed an extra eye on me. I remember seeing him drop a tear for the first time in our relationship; he just kept on wishing he had never met you. Everyone that met you could never forget you.

I remember your very fair face, your flawless skin and your angelic smile, how could anyone be so pretty and yet so down to earth? We always used to argue over which one of us was taller, you were so tall and striking and I almost envied you, you were so fond of me I often wondered why, even when I purposely tried to upset you ,you never got angry. I still have your number on my phone and some days I just call it hoping against hope that it will ring and you would pick up, maybe I finally need to delete it and move on.

I remember regretting never telling you how special you were, I never told you what your friendship meant to me, today again I cry because I never told you were an angel ,I never told you ….. I never told …..

December 10t would always be a horrible day for me and as I get closer to it I fret.

Sophie I miss u…..but I know you have gone to be with God ,He must know you are an angel and desperately needed you beside him …someday we would be together again….someday….I hope.

Monday, November 19, 2007

30 days of Thankfulness..Day 19

I was tagged by red puree for day 18 but here i am on day 19 and Father i know its never too late to thank You i could thank you everyday and i know it will never be enof.

Where do i start ?
For Today Lord even especially today i thank you yes ..you delivered me from yesterday and i am here today to thank You,In sept i was here to thank you and i look back at how much has gone by since then and this morning i cry.

For that time in July when I was depressed ,then when I was at my wits ends even then when I had no one to turn to ,tomorro was too bleak to be seen ,You showed me the sun again and now I can look up and truly thank you,My comforter am thankful

For showing me imcomparable love, Your love is so real.I have been loved and I have been hurt ..Yes no man can love me like You do,even before I ask Lord You answer ,Yes I call You once and You answer seven time .No wonder the meaning of my name....The love of my life ...am thankful.
For the people You have sent to my life ,My friends have truly been a blessing to me and each of my down times i look and i see the reason why You sent them into my life ...they have been a tower and yet Your the PILLAR ..the STRONG TOWER,yes Lord am thankful.

For giving me answers to those quiet prayers i whispered to You,they brought me peace,for those mind blowing ideas that brought me wealth, My standby,My dynamic strategist...am thankful.

For distinguishing me amongst my peers,For making me excell in my job,for setting me on a high place ,for never letting me down Lord am thankful.

For giving me a 3rd chance again even though i knew i didnt deserve it.Even now i cry knowing how much i have hurt You...yet Lord you forgave me and gave me a new name ,yes for helping me forgive myself ...My Saviour Im extremely grateful.

For not judging me when everyone said all sorts, for sending twinny into my life to comfort me even against all odds ,for strenghtening him to encourage me ,for making him my inspiration ,my best friend...Im thankful.

For giving me the best family in the world ,You must have known how challenging life was going to be and sent me the most amazing sister,she has been there to help me ,counsel me ,encourage me ,Yes Lord you never make a mistake,am thankful

I could just go on and on and on ....no wonder David called You The Strong and Breasted One,Yes the Comforter ,Isiah called you Wonderful Counselor,Everlasting Father ,Prince of Peace.

Even though things may not look like they have fallen in place now..ogologomma agha ...Im grateful.
Even though Life still seems like a puzzle.From afar i can see where im heading and again..ama ama amacha amacha ...Im grateful.
When my zeal is gone ,when i have no other song to sing please help me to be truly grateful .Eze Ebube you have been good to me.

NATASHA is joining Blogville to say am thankful.

Im tagging An ibo dude,kokoletta and Overwhelmed

Monday, November 12, 2007

What i think about.....

I am … not a very nice person all the time.
My ex-Boyfriend was … nice ,he loved me so much he hurt me real bad
Maybe I should … Quit my job and travel round the world
I love … to lounge with my friends
I don't understand … everyone has turned to a player (both male and female)
really I lost… all the love inside me,i dont have any feeling for anyone

My current boyfriend is … someone am not taking very seriously
People say I'm....Interesting company ..there is never a dull moment with me.
Love is … relative,most people misunderstand it
Somewhere, someone is… thinking of me and waiting for me to notice him
I will always ….be me.
Forever is … now i live by the day
I never want to … be caught in the middle of two guys that are friends
I think the current President is … yet to show his true colour...well its too early to tell
When I wake up in the morning … I go back to bed; then pray and rush to work
Life is full of … challenges
My past is incredibly … alot of things that have made me wiser
I get annoyed when … people take me for granted
Parties are for … unwinding
Guys are … lying bastards ,two can play that game though
Sex is … what makes the world go round
I wish … i ddnt have to work and yet i had all the money in the world
Tomorrow I'm going to … get married
I really want some … more money
I have low tolerance for people who … are not smart or hardworking
If I had a million dollars … hnmmm u wouldnt wanna know what id do
My job makes me … bored,i need a new job

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

The essence of Life

The shrill in his voice cut through my bone marrows like a chain saw as
he narrates his ordeal over the phone. He had just lost his younger
brother in an accident a month ago, his wife just gave birth, in
addition he caters for his other five siblings and a week after he was
fired by the organisation for which he has sacrificed nine years of his
life. Bugzy got fired last week; he could not even pick his personal
files from his PC.

This piece is not about Bugzy, it's about us, you and me. Let's pause
for a moment and put our selves in Bugzy's shoes, did I hear God forbid?
Yeah! Bugzy would have said that a week ago but reality has set in.
whether Bugzy was unfairly sacked is not what I want to discuss but what
have we to learn from it?

We work in the 21st century where technology is fast claiming good old
jobs, my dad used to be a cable expert at NITEL, he reveled at the
single fact that he's so good at the job, he was indispensable, but the
moment the idea of GSM was being mooted, he was such a smart man that he
resigned and started some other business but his colleagues stayed on
with expectation of the usual monthly pay perk, then came the big bang,
256 NITEL Technical staff sacked, my dad was still being paid his
pension after taking his gratuity. Technology we love so much is
becoming our competitor, organisations are fast automating their
processes, we are being replaced by machines, it's now a war of man vs.
machine but man is fast losing the battle due to that tacit support of
the capitalist machine.

Yes, the capitalist machine, that greedy behemoth, never satisfied with
little. Due to globalization, companies are spreading more than ever,
are consolidating more than ever and profits are rising more than ever
but jobs are lost more than ever. You may ask why, the reason is; they
have found alternatives and they are machines. Companies cut jobs at
every little provocation, losing ones job is as easy as a phone call or
an SMS, hurray technology! When organisations want to cut costs, they
don't sell computers and softwares, they sack people.

Like Bugzy, we have come to work today, to earn our pay, but are we
really sure we will be here when the salary will be paid? I am not
Nostradamus but I can give a little advice on how to live in this
perilous times. I may be sounding too negative but permit me to drive
home my points. Do we have the I-quit-money? Majority of us just spend
and spend till we drop dead, hoping to earn an unearned salary. We shop,
drink, party away, take loans to consume luxuries over income we are yet
to earn in the next three years. What if after this, we get sacked and
nothing is left in our accounts? We get frustrated and feel worthless.
Please, let's save and save and save and then invest, invest and invest
again but wisely, let's invest in landed properties, stocks, bonds;
invest long term and short term for we will fall back on them in the
rainy days. At least let's set about 30-40% of our income aside for
investment and savings so when it happens we can comfort our dependants
and keep their hopes alive instead of killing our dreams and theirs due
to our wrong choices.

A job should not deter us from having a plan B, one of the best ways to
make a plan B is to learn some very practical skills aside from what we
do at work, let's learn some skills. The truth is in some years from
now, people like Bugzy might be thankful to the organisation for sacking
them as they might become more successful by going into personal
businesses or doing something that will bring income far above what
their paid jobs offered. Can you sing? Try developing that skill, learn
to sew, learn hair dressing, make use of that ability to cook that
people have always praised you for, are you good at programming? Try
designing software, teach if you can, learn something, anything, it
could be your saving grace after you receive that call. These are
derided skills which wiser people have converted to cash. Talk about the
Mr Biggs, Nandos, Tiffany Ambers, Frank Oshodis, Tufaces, Bill Gates,
Steve Jobs of these world and you talk of people doing ordinary things
in special ways and making serious money.

For those that can still apply to study please
intensify efforts, it increases your market worth and you can call the
bluff of any employer when you need to

A word is enough for the wise, let's do these things so we can smile and
drop our letters with joy when we are called to do so. These things call
for serious discipline, what else differentiate success from failure if
not discipline and determination?

If you can't fly, run. If you can't run, walk, but please keep moving.
Don't sit in your comfort zone because there is nothing as such, it's an

Thank you and God bless you

A word is enough for the wise